Well, People consider my posts as confused thoughts of an immature person. But then no body thinks of himself as immaure or an idiot. I dont care what they say or think because according to me, my journey on this path of life has just started. It might take some time for me to appreciate the things I have left behind or rather the things I dont care about at his point of my life. I might sound insane but there is nothing right now that I am crazy about. I just want to cut away from this life , I might choose to die, than living such a hollow life. What will I do with such a mediocre life when there is nothing that can bind me to my family or to my home, or to my city or to this world. I will never get what I want at that time. I have to wait for it so long that the entire point of desire dies away. They say , that by this way I can learn more and value the things but that's all bullshit. When I want , I should get it,Then I can enjoy it the way I want , but If I have to wait and work to get it I might get recluse on the way and never ask for that thing again. In other words , I will never get the things when I want.all this might sound carzy and contradiction to itself , but living is an expensive , boring , mediocre and long hobby that people indulge in . They earn like kings , spend alike but in the end they die and nothing with them .So whats this competition all about , all these flashy things to boast about ?? when I cant have them , I dont care .