break up

My life has always been a dud till I left my hometown few years back to try myself in IT world. It turned beautiful when I left all emotions and relations to start a career in city of dreams, mumbai. But a strange thing happened at the start of this year. I fell in love . But I made a mistake of trying to leave mumbai to be with her in our hometown. No one can leave mumbai if the city doesnt want one to go. I tried and failed and the price of failure became too much of burden to bear. I have insulted my emotions as well as hers too by being so helpless. Sometimes I wanna ask people what is more painful . Not having something or losing the thing that you had. I guess both. And I had my share of both these . Today I have been again denied by my company to get a transfer. Yet again, I have failed and trust me this time the loss is more than just few months more of waiting. I just broke up with my girlfriend,sort of mutual ,coz we both are tired of missing each other . We will pretend as if we never existed . Lets try this also . Anyways there is no need to get a trasnfer now as the reason and motivation to come back to hometown is lost. O lord bless me for which I fell in love .

The year so far

The year started with great expectations and hopes. The prospects of MBA and good friends and coming back to my hometown after dozen odd months. It all seemed rather happy and confortable picture and suddenly out of the blue ,everything fell apart.
Lost some friends, chance to live with family, MBA degree, all have been delayed for atleast a year more . And God knows what will and can happen in this year . I want a new job but there is no vacancy. I want a transfer but no one will let me go. And here I am living like a sleepy man with a hollow life and nothing to do for some more months.
There is a famous fact of our family which mom always say to cheer me up .
We only get a part of what we want and then we have to wait a long time for the rest.

eg: If I get good result in written , wont get good result in GD/PI.

So moral of the story , Aim for the complete thing .