a friend

Finally , there is a friend who understood my dilemma and suggested exactly what i wanted to hear. Kudos to you . you are a friend indeed. For people who don't know what I am talking about , there are some excerpts. Make your own goddamn story.

The year started with me getting hit by a thunderbolt once again . No shit , I know that was it and if you were there , you would have said the same thing. I know how I spent the first three months trying to figure out what to do (me still confused , actually) , and after that I got used to it.
There is nothing major lead yet and I still get 'reminiscence attack' once in a while.

Nobody, absolutely nobody understood exactly what the problem is, and gave vague solutions to my supposed problem . But today after meeting my alter ego ( my friend) , I guess he is the only one to have given it a serious thought and he is the only one daring enough to call things on my face. Even my parents couldn't give me a sure shot answer but I guess now since the path is in sight . I just have to pave it accordingly and walk up on it till the end. And this time I won't stop till its over.

A song i would like to dedicate myself..

The Rasmus - In the shadows

No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

In the shadows

They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I rather kill myself then turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

In the shadows
I've been waiting
I've been waiting

But I don't want to wait for anyone or anything. Let it come to myself.
Let me be myself from this moment. Amen