Should I Call or should not ??

It has been around 6 months without my girlfriend in my life and it feels like hell. I had some flings and normal flirting moments during this time but that didn’t help me get over with it. Whenever I touched other girls I imagined my girl with me and how happy she will be when I will do these things to her. But it didn’t happen. God knows why, and now even you do. It is because of my stupid and emotionally impulsive behaviour yet it is me and i refuse to change. I might be called sissy to reveal the emotional me but that’s the fun being a ghost writer, you don’t know me .Now the question is Should I call her again??

If I call her, she will remind me how I made her feel bad at times and that she has moved on and I should do the same. How I made her cry and how I wasn’t there when I needed her. Some complaints, isn’t it? May be or maybe not, we were in a long distance relationship and it takes a mature and patient to understand the situations and needs of a person so far away. We both lacked it and now here we are, alone and sad. At least I am.

So I want to call her but wont coz too much is at stake . My pride , my ego etc.

I am calling, bye !!